I'm kinda over this whole college thing. This year is winding down and instead of getting better, it's kinda getting worse. I never have time for anything anymore including friends (outside of lax), which is why most of them all moved on without me. I find myself eating alone in the caf all the time now, on my own schedule different from all theirs, studying constantly to try and keep my grades decent. So I figure I'm walking away from college with 2 new good friends (outside lax that is), and the rest acquaintances. Not exactly what I wanted when I got myself involved in this whole deal. I guess it doesnt really matter in the end anyway, when I hopefully get enough courage to move out of this state for good. Thinking about transferring has crossed my mind a lot lately, but I know I'd never do it. I'm too comfortable being here, but at the same time I'm not. I dont know where I belong anymore.
Thank god for the team, they keep me sane; but at the same time they are the reason why I dont have many friends here anymore...
Thank god I'm going to Chicago this weekend, getting away from all this. I need it.
About Me
- Ash
- I <3 music and concerts. i go to michigan state university. im interested in criminal justice, natural resources, wildlife, and psychology. i love playin lacrosse, and doing every board sport imaginable. i love the beach, and i love traveling. i want to be a professional traveler when i grow up... haha. Or I'll just settle for being a State Game Warden, or a Federal Conservation Officer
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2 things: one, i'd fucking better be one of those friends or we're for sure breaking up. two, walking away from college? it's just started. give it time kiddo it's only the first year. if i can get over how much i hated it here, i'm sure you can learn to love it too. see you in the morning!! love you.
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